Saturday, October 01, 2005
Day 22: "The Love of Christ Vs the Love of Carol" 2nd Nephi 8-11 pgs 70-81
I often wonder whom God will send as a special witness of Christ for the Muslim people? I have heard stories of ordinary people having extraordinary manifestations of Christ in areas where people weren't believers of the Bible or Christ. It seems to me as if God sends special witnesses to open doors and hearts in non-Christian areas. I do believe he will send them their own witnesses. And I do believe it will be soon.
My Large Hulking Son (LHS) is really pushing the limits. In just the past few days he's missed Friday prayer AGAIN, had the police called on him for driving "donuts" in a sandlot, backed the car into a pedestrian giving him a bruised leg, and stayed out playing video games all night on a school night without calling home. He's also been smoking in the house despite repeated requests to refrain.
His father's flying into the country for the month of Ramadan and there will be hell to pay for his wild and reckless behavior. I really welcome the help, but I don't look forward to the yelling that will ensue. It's chaos here and I'm tired of it.
I've told my husband he needs to have the manager run the restaurant in Pakistan and get over here on a permanent basis. We were hoping to have the restaurant sold by now, but there have been no serious offers in 4 months. I had also hoped LHS would have calmed down once college started, but that has not been the case. In fact he has some sort of mental chess game going: he thinks we "owe" him some "slack" since he's doing us the "favor" of going to college and staying off drugs. Every time he gives us one behavior we want, he lowers his standards somewhere else.
Needles to say I'm having a hard time maintaining my calm, not to mention my sanity. I'm beginning to view him as "the enemy" again. We are still keeping up with the hug therapy, but he's pushing and pushing and pushing. Oh yeah, did I mention his neck full of hickeys which he lied about, AND he ate a rare and imported candy bar I had given his sister as a special treat. Now that's, the straw that broke the camel's back!
Anyway, I realize I'm trying to love him with the "Love of Carol." The "Love of Carol" is good stuff IF you are kind to me, treat me gently and never misuse me. However, the "Love of Carol" is like a cheap toy. If you tamper with it too much it will break and it has no warrantee. What I need to do is channel the "Love of Christ" to this kid. The "Love of Christ" is powerful stuff. It has an unlimited, eternal, full-coverage warrantee. It guarantees complete and perfect love no matter what the circumstances. It even covers tampering and rough usage. The "Love of Christ" comes free, but you can only get it from an authorized dealer. I have to partner with Christ to be that authorized dealer for my son, 'cause he needs a wholesale shipment.
Joseph Smith Jr.