Monday, September 26, 2005
Day 17: "Increased Perception" 1st Nephi 11-14 pgs19-30
That's how I would express my feelings of increased attunement with the Holy Spirit these past 17 days, except it isn't a fleeting feeling but a lingering 24-hour feeling. I can even feel it, as I am drifting off to or just waking from sleep. This morning I awakened with the words "Less of me and more of Thee" drifting through my head. It as if the Spirit is whispering truths to me that I can hear best when I'm in a quiet, relaxed state.
Today's reading was jam packed with prophecy, revelation, truth, an overview of Christ's life, and the spiritual history of the world. Nephi saw it all and basically lays it all out till he gets to the part of the 2nd coming and is commanded to leave those parts for John the Beloved to reveal. Truly amazing and wonderful stuff!!!
I'd love to have the time to go verse-by-verse and either explain it or add my witness, but it's late and I need to get to bed. I can feel an ache in my throat and I'm worried I'm getting a cold.
After writing yesterday's blog entry, I thought I had to at least try to reach my family. I reminded my daughter of my reading and invited her to join me. She said something to the effect that the less she knew about the Mormon faith, the more respect she could have for me. That was painful.
I asked the Lord what I should be doing, but haven't received a plan of action yet, but at least I know now that I'm to keep asking for his will, and not to give up so easily. Giving up comes naturally to me. If I was a missionary, I'd get up every morning, put on my nametag, open my front door and expect to see a line of people anxious to hear the gospel message. I always have the attitude of "Lord, I'm doing my part, now you do yours. Make this easy for me." But the Lord doesn't work that way does he? If he wants me to stretch and grow and fight and claw my way towards my goals, than I guess that is what I must do.
Joseph Smith Jr.